2006 already...

We celebrated Christmas with Chee's fam today. Nana Abuelo Sis - it was really a nice day. Mikey and L joined us. Great way to enjoy the day. Little hassle, no drama. Just food, laughter, mimosas and gifts. Very nice.

Chee and I are staying in tonight. Watching a movie - maybe turning on the tube near the end of day to check out the state of Dick Clark. We're not just staying in 'cause of S, altho that is majority of the reason. Neither one of us wants to hang with a bunch of strangers in a smoky, crowded bar. Maybe we're getting old; or smart; depends on your point of view. 'Course, we're not desperately seeking or playing at partying. Not that either is bad - I've certainly been in both spots. Just fits us better to hang with the one we love, is all.

Here's wishing much love and happy to all out there. My "wants' for 2006 - Love for my singles who are wishing and hoping and trying and praying (each in their own way). Health for all my fam; love to (and for) my sis and her kids; happy busy for my Kev; nothing but good love for Neighbor Mike; satisfaction, stability and great sex(!)for L, T and Camel; joy to my Chee and S. I love you all so much -- thanks for being in my life.

Here's to an excellent new year.
Make your own beauty.

Unnerving

Same night, different subject...You know what is unnerving? Looking through a friggin' year of digi pix and finding maybe, oh, 15 of you. TOTAL. I'm not talking about the just the good ones, I'm talking TOTAL. All I wanted was one cute photo of me alone. None. NONE. SO sad. I need to figure out the timer on my camera, obviously.

When I'm always on the photographer end, it's a little disconcerting to see a life without me in it. Lots of my girl and hubbie. But he has the bad habit of taking pix of inanimate objects in nature - rocks, plants, skyscapes, ruins, landmarks. Our honeymoon photos have more pix of dead trees than of me. *sigh* I know he loves me, but I think I need to press this issue. Just a little. I didn't think it bothered me so much. Ah, the minor issues that raise their heads when you aren't looking...

Shower thoughts

I do my best thinking in the shower. Always have. When work is stressful, that's when I plan out my day. Weekends, I go over my to-do list. When the baby came along, and showers were rare, I could feel the withdrawal setting in. And my hubbie wonders why they're always 20 minutes.

This morning, my shower topic was this blog. What do I post? I raced through a list of ideas. Lots of things to talk about: my lack of html knowledge, and how this blog will force me to learn; an opportunity to pimp my single friends' good qualities to the world; family angst; thoughts on politics, environment, GW (and how much his administration blows); books & music I love...

I have settled on writing about my blog angst, obviously. I told a few friends I was starting the orange wall, and they want the link. Now I feel pressure - not from them, but the same old pressure I place on myself. So I'm going to do my best to ignore the "she ain't perfect" drill, and just drive (kind of like in Driver's Ed, when I stopped at a Yield, and got yelled at by the football coach - I proceeded to flip him off and gun it. End result was not pretty.)

munkeygirl & mama at the river 

We've only just begun...

I have finally succumbed to the "invisible" pressure. I too, have started a blog. No guarantee how often I will write. Plus, I'm still figuring this blog thing out - love to nose into other people's spaces, but my space will need some serious work before I'm satisfied with it...which for anyone who knows me should not be surprising.

There is so much I should be doing versus this. I think I need a hobby. Maybe this is it. Or maybe the definition of "hobby" just isn't what it used to be. (Sometimes I wonder if I'm living a hobby.)

My new job feels more like a hobby - the company owner trusts us, and "hires adults who don't need babysat." It's a nice change from being forced to ask adult men who know better if an overdue project is done yet. Killed me. I was working in an IT dept. at a small corporation. 4 years I did that. What I got out of it - lots of stress, a decent 401k, several friends I'll continue to associate with...It's strange how that much time can yield so little. I'm glad to have moved on...

I'll try to not use this venue as a bitch board. I may not have a ton of interesting things to say, but for now, this is my little voice to the world.